Today marks the 4 year anniversary of the best decision I ever made.  In one day I experienced the most amazing thing a woman can do and the most devastating grief any mother can feel.  I had a baby boy and placed him for adoption.  Some people don’t understand or agree with my decision, but I have come to learn not to listen to such negativity.  I can honestly say four years later that I made the correct choice.  Shia seems so happy with his family, though I haven’t built up the courage necessary for meeting him.  His parents keep me updated with pictures and messages about how he is doing.  It is an open adoption so I didn’t lose him completly.  Some times it is really hard to see his face and read about how smart he is.  But overall I am very proud of him and myself.  I just wish more people understood or tried to understand.