I am having another night of tossing and turning in my bed trying to sleep.  And my mind won’t shut the hell up.  I keep having all these random thoughts popping into my head and they won’t go away.  For this reason I have decided that I need to start writing in my blog again in order to free these thoughts.  Unfortunately, I don’t know if now is the best time.  It’s almost 2 am and I’m out of cigarettes.  It seems like it’s too early to make coffee but I really want some.  However, I would also like to attempt to get some sleep tonight.

I think I know that this is all just anxiety about my disability hearing that is on Tuesday.  And my mind is trying to stay in denial about the potential ramifications of the outcome by filling up with random thoughts.  Thinking about exercising, dieting, clothes, movies, books, writing and other random items are keeping me from going crazy.  At least that is my best psychiatric analysis of myself.  I wonder if our brains really do that.  Do we really distract ourselves without even knowing it?  If so, then I am completely missing the point of distracting myself by figuring out what I am supposed to be distracted from and concentrating on that exact subject.

This whole blog entry is laughable at this point.  At least it is making me laugh as I review it.  I think I am going to make a list of possible topics that I would like to write about.  I’m sure some of them could simply turn into tweets in which case I can then flood my Twitter account with a bunch of random thoughts.  And maybe the rest of the subjects will eventually lead to another post in the near future.

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