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So I have Multiple Sclerosis which has a multitude of symptoms that plague me on a daily basis.  Some days are good days and some days are very bad.  My most annoying symptom is the ‘pins and needlesfeeling that i get all over my body.  You know that feeling you get in your foot when you sit indian style for too long and it falls asleep.  Well I have that feeling somewhere in my body all the time.  The worst place is in my hands.  My fingers are always tingling.  You would think I would be used to it by now, but I’m not.  I still get flustered trying to type without feeling in my fingertips.  I still swear every time I drop something because I wasn’t paying close enough attention to it.  I forget sometimes that I have to concentrate on every little thing I do with my hands.  A physical therapist has given me some exercises to do that supposedly help my brain handle these small movements with the hands.  So I practice picking up coins and stacking them together in the vain attempt that maybe it will help.  I know I will never get the feeling back in my hands regardless of how many steroids they pump into my system, but I don’t want to admit it.  I want to keep the daydream alive that maybe my hands will feel normal one day because that is better than knowing I am stuck with numb hands for the rest of my life.

Today I went for a 30 minute long walk.  I’m trying to get into a habit of walking everyday.  But guess what happens to my legs when I walk that short period of time.  I get back to the house and immediately feel the ‘pins and needles’ spread down from my waist.  It goes away in about 10 minutes, but its there long enough for me to disheartened by it.  The Multiple Sclerosis rears it’s head just long enough to remind me that I have an incurable disease.  I’ve dealt with these flare-ups long enough that it won’t stop me from walking every day.  But it does ruin that first sense of accomplishment you get after getting a little bit of exercise.  I know that this is my life now and I know that I should just get used to it.  But I don’t have to like it.

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